I guess I should be honest with myself. There are a lot of things I rant about that are partially, or entirely, my fault. There are also a lot of things I blame myself for that are not at all my fault, but I blame myself anyway. The things I falsely blame myself for will take more time for me to get over rather than the things I should be blaming myself for, so I'll start there. I complain about college a lot, but the truth is that it's partially my fault. If college really was as terrible as I say, then I wouldn't have started off being an honor student for my first 3 semesters. I guess I must have gotten lazy and stopped caring somewhere along the way, for whatever reason I'm not sure. But, nobody said I had to be a computer science major, it is what I chose, and if I can't handle it, I should have changed to something else sooner. Also money problems are somewhat my own fault as well. Yes I inherited some debt, but if I would look for a job like I should be, and settle for something even if it's not something I want to do, then maybe I wouldn't have as much debt as I do. There's probably numerous other things I should be blaming myself for, but this journal has gotten kind of long so I'll stop there. The truth can hurt, but sometimes we just gotta get over ourselves and deal with it. I'm no different, so I guess I should start trying too.